Nothing But Pain

build it up
just to watch it fall
the time you spent
just to lose it all

left on your knees
fists full of sand
sitting exhausted
cant even stand

reflection loses value
each and every day
looking in disgust
as it eats you away

just left with nothing
after all youve been through
left with this pain
and memories she gave you

Feel The Music

feel the music
relate to the sound
study the lyrics
until meaning is found

let it consume you
devour you whole
giving you wisdom
let it take control

music is feeling
captured, controlled
appreciate music
and the meaning it holds

An Eye For An Eye

we cry over a plane
those faces with no name
and we support our military
as our country does the same

different standards for our dead
while respecting the unknown
assuming of their innocents
because they are our own

an eye for an eye
and a tooth for a tooth
were already blind
and refusing the truth

Fragile Like Glass

fragile like glass
your words like a stone
these blinds i keep closed
leave me dark and alone

walls built to protect
the feelings within my core
locked inside myself
from pain iv felt before

so use to this shelter
wont let people in
wanting myself to trust
but unsure where to begin

To Love Is To Hate

loving this intensity
hating the confusion
love is mixed emotions
maybe love is an illusion

its like im in a trance
im hating this control
cant stop these feelings
engulfed within my soul

hating to love
but loving that hate
loving the person
you hate to relate
some call it love
and some call it fate
what have i learned?
to love is to hate

Ghost Wave

time remains frozen
as your hand glides through the air
your just ignored
as they pretend your not there
your left embarrassed
and you try not to stare
you just play it cool
and pretend not to care

like a ghost your unseen
out of sight, out of mind
as their back turns to you
ignored and left behind

like a rogue in the dark
you want to disappear
away from reality
and the emotions you fear.

Religion Is Obscene

belief in something unseen
faith in something unclean
desire for something obscene
morally insane
mentally restrained
emotionally drained
physically nothing gained
crutches are for the weak
for those afraid to speak
answers they refuse to seek
your god is like a creek in the floor
it may make a sound but nothing more

Deceitful America

America Is Greedy.
Americans Are Blind.
Our Country Is So Needy.
Our People So Unkind.

Our Nation, Our Government, Our Military Base.
All Corrupt, Deceitful, And An Insult To Our Race.

We Are Based Around Religion.
Our Government So Just.
Our Laws Are For Protection!
No Gay Marriage Is A Must?

Sign Up For The Army!
We'll Pay To Own Your Life!
If You Die While Serving.
It All Goes To Your Wife.

As A Soldier You're Disposable, To The Military You're A Tool.
Go Fix America's Problems, By Dying Like A Fool?

Religious Control

Following
Inside You Are Hollowing
Religion Begins Swallowing
You Whole, Your Life And Soul
Religion Starts To Take Its Toll

Controlling
The Things That You Are Doing
The Thoughts You Are Pursuing
No More Control Over Your Soul
Religion Plays The Ultimate Role

Hatred
To Those Who Arent The Same
To God Its Just A Game
Rigged To Lose Either Path You Choose
Religions Just A Clever Ruse

Depressing Days

weighed down by emotions
drowning in depression
loneliness in mind
longing for connection
over looked by many
a day of self reflection
forgotten by the world
a world full of deception
alone with my thoughts
pain within my heart
my depressing day
inspired depressing art

A Home To Disown

my space is not my own
this place is not my home
a place which i disown
disgracing your name
possessing no shame
destroyed by your reign
to you were the blame
poison flows within your veins
passed out, no intent to change
sick of your destructive ways
tired of the effect it plays
on the ones that truly pay

Religion Is War

lets have a war
my god has done more
it says in this book
your gods just a crook
fallacies created
places invaded
blood has been shed
people are dead
for what may i ask
whats the goal of this task
to kill non believers
label them as deceivers
you think your god won
but the war isn't done
there will always be more
religion is war

Sedated

it must be so cool to act like a fool
smoking and drinking without even thinking
as you acquire the desire to party and inspire
the younger generation that intoxication is the inspiration for the creation of fun.
its just over-rated to be sedated
no recollection of the night, no thoughts on whats right. just fun in your mind, common sense left behind, important decisions made blind, mistakes you wish you could rewind and avoid at all cost, all those moments you lost blacked out on the floor, you wont remember no more.

Love?

Emotions Torn
Body Worn
Love Is A Thought
It Can Not Be Taught
Emotional Chains
Cover Your Pains
Love Is So Clear
But Reality Is Near
Blinded By Love
And Loving So Blindly
Ignoring The Signs And Advice That Is Given
Your Love Is So Strong And Your Doubts Remain Hidden

Regret

not realizing what you want
untill it isnt there
pretending its whats good for you
as emotions gasp for air

thinking of mistakes youve made
as they haunt your every day
wishing you could just take back
the things you didnt want to say

is it just to late for me
to reclaim what Ive lost
will I get another chance
to retrieve at any cost

To My Pretend Friend

you act as a friend
its just an act in the end
youve chosen to deceive
past actions i cant believe
iv come to this conclusion
your not worth the time or the confusion
im just letting you know
our friendships done, im letting you go
trample on those that care
and soon youll find that no ones there

Lead On

Anger Fills My Body
Pain Fills My Heart
Confusion Fills My Mind
You Treat It As An Art

Fucking With Emotions
Messing With My Head
You Think Your Something Special
In My Eyes Your Just Dead :)

Scarred Remains

You Held The Match That Lit The Flame
You've Burnt Me Times Before
You've Tried To Extinguish The Pain
Like Always I'm Left Sore
Sitting Here With Scarred Remains
Not Trusting Anymore
Believing You My First Mistake
Most Likely Premature
Trusting You In Any Way
A Lesson Learned Forsure

Pretty To The Naked Eye

pretty to the naked eye
selfish needs to fulfill
using people for your gain
crushing them for a thrill
life is like your masquerade
hidden deep beneath a shade
your intentions will appear
why you do it still unclear
if they open up their eyes
eventually they will realize
your image is a disguise
for the ugly beneath the lies

Bitter Sweet Memories

will this ever be enough
to move forward from where i stand
will i ever progress enough
to accomplish what they all demand

confused to what should be left behind
haunted by thoughts etched in my mind
solutions for others i can find
but for myself i remain blind

so afraid of mistakes, i cant look ahead
im left awake laying in bed
thinking of things i should have said
and what should be buried, left for dead


these bitter sweet memories
iv clung to for so long
should they haunt my existence
or is the past where they belong

My Escape

the feeling i get as i drift from existence
reality behind me left in the distance
i'm consumed in a world thats inscripted in ink
this world is its own, leaving freedom to think
an escape from this turmoil, no worries in mind
hidden in a place that no one can find
but everything good must come to an end
its slowly over as my eyes descend
left hoping for more but it can not be
that place was my world and a large part of me

 

Self Reflection

Reflecting Upon Myself
Uncovering Fears Deep Within
Are These Fears To Be Ignored?
To Stay Hidden Beneath My Skin?

Do I Know What I Want?
Am I Scared Of What Could Be?
Afraid To Let People Close
Afraid Of What They Will See

I'm Constantly Selfconcious
Hiding Behind These Walls
Dreading All The Moments
I Cant Prevent At All

No Sympathy

Each Sip You Take From You're Glass Leaves A Crack In Mine.
Each Drink You Take To Drown You're Past Leaves Us Left Behind.
Each Step You Stumble Or Curb YOU Fall You're Just Not The Same.
Each Time I See You Like This, The Anger I Restrain.

My Sympathy For You Extinct.
You're Habits Causing Me To Think.
You've Lost All Of Your Self Control.
You Drink To Try To Fill A Hole?

Now That Its All Said And Done.
You're Glass Is Empty, You're Pain Has Won!

Desire

to desire the things that mean most to you
but never acquire those things you pursue
defeated by your emotional needs
crushing your hopes, destroying your dreams
left wishing for things that can not be
hoping for what youll never see
dreaming of how life would be,
if your dreams became reality

Sea Of Lies

the current drifts you further from me
sailing off course, as i sit by the sea
the sea of lies you engulfed yourself in
waiting for a ship and what might have been
new passenger boarded to take my place
im left abandoned, just empty space
i was forgotten, erased from time
stranded by the ship that i thought was mine.

Hidden Pain

My Dad Is Dead
Locked In A Coffin.

His Death Caused Me Pain
I Haven't Forgotten.

His Body Decays In His Eternal Slumber.
He Resides In The Ground Six Feet Under.

The Cancer Took Him Away From Me.
My Thoughts Leave Me With Questions,
The Answers I Will Never See.

Why Did He Smoke All Those Years?
I Watched As His Happiness Disappears.

I Guess The Cigarettes Gave Him A Buzz He Liked.
And The Disease That Took Away His Life.

Memories Of Him Live In Me.
I Love My Dad, But He Cant See.