tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26976837443846167672024-02-08T03:46:23.152-08:00my writing/poetryrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-2910466126564776802010-09-19T12:16:00.000-07:002010-09-19T12:16:19.162-07:00Nothing But Painbuild it up<br />
just to watch it fall<br />
the time you spent<br />
just to lose it all<br />
<br />
left on your knees<br />
fists full of sand<br />
sitting exhausted<br />
cant even stand<br />
<br />
reflection loses value<br />
each and every day<br />
looking in disgust<br />
as it eats you away<br />
<br />
just left with nothing<br />
after all youve been through<br />
left with this pain<br />
and memories she gave yourayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-49101427344446146792010-09-19T12:13:00.000-07:002010-09-19T12:13:10.077-07:00Feel The Musicfeel the music<br />
relate to the sound<br />
study the lyrics<br />
until meaning is found<br />
<br />
let it consume you<br />
devour you whole<br />
giving you wisdom<br />
let it take control<br />
<br />
music is feeling <br />
captured, controlled<br />
appreciate music<br />
and the meaning it holdsrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-72450145213353344732010-09-16T16:29:00.001-07:002010-09-16T16:29:08.015-07:00An Eye For An Eyewe cry over a plane<br />
those faces with no name<br />
and we support our military<br />
as our country does the same<br />
<br />
different standards for our dead<br />
while respecting the unknown <br />
assuming of their innocents<br />
because they are our own<br />
<br />
an eye for an eye<br />
and a tooth for a tooth<br />
were already blind<br />
and refusing the truthrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-65488000846864471802010-09-14T15:44:00.001-07:002010-09-14T15:44:56.703-07:00Fragile Like Glassfragile like glass<br />
your words like a stone<br />
these blinds i keep closed<br />
leave me dark and alone<br />
<br />
walls built to protect<br />
the feelings within my core<br />
locked inside myself<br />
from pain iv felt before<br />
<br />
so use to this shelter<br />
wont let people in<br />
wanting myself to trust<br />
but unsure where to beginrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-83911687889447782932010-09-12T19:49:00.001-07:002010-09-12T19:49:53.387-07:00To Love Is To Hateloving this intensity<br />
hating the confusion<br />
love is mixed emotions<br />
maybe love is an illusion<br />
<br />
its like im in a trance <br />
im hating this control<br />
cant stop these feelings<br />
engulfed within my soul<br />
<br />
hating to love<br />
but loving that hate<br />
loving the person<br />
you hate to relate<br />
some call it love<br />
and some call it fate<br />
what have i learned?<br />
to love is to haterayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-35678699579803634202010-09-10T23:07:00.000-07:002010-09-10T23:07:03.498-07:00Ghost Wavetime remains frozen<br />
as your hand glides through the air<br />
your just ignored<br />
as they pretend your not there<br />
your left embarrassed<br />
and you try not to stare<br />
you just play it cool<br />
and pretend not to care<br />
<br />
like a ghost your unseen<br />
out of sight, out of mind<br />
as their back turns to you<br />
ignored and left behind<br />
<br />
like a rogue in the dark<br />
you want to disappear<br />
away from reality<br />
and the emotions you fear.rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-46859598315739909472010-09-09T01:13:00.000-07:002010-09-09T01:13:16.817-07:00Religion Is Obscenebelief in something unseen<br />
faith in something unclean<br />
desire for something obscene<br />
morally insane<br />
mentally restrained<br />
emotionally drained<br />
physically nothing gained<br />
crutches are for the weak<br />
for those afraid to speak<br />
answers they refuse to seek<br />
your god is like a creek in the floor<br />
it may make a sound but nothing morerayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-26994254111304630842010-09-09T01:10:00.001-07:002010-09-09T01:10:52.992-07:00Deceitful AmericaAmerica Is Greedy.<br />
Americans Are Blind.<br />
Our Country Is So Needy.<br />
Our People So Unkind.<br />
<br />
Our Nation, Our Government, Our Military Base.<br />
All Corrupt, Deceitful, And An Insult To Our Race.<br />
<br />
We Are Based Around Religion.<br />
Our Government So Just.<br />
Our Laws Are For Protection!<br />
No Gay Marriage Is A Must?<br />
<br />
Sign Up For The Army!<br />
We'll Pay To Own Your Life!<br />
If You Die While Serving.<br />
It All Goes To Your Wife.<br />
<br />
As A Soldier You're Disposable, To The Military You're A Tool.<br />
Go Fix America's Problems, By Dying Like A Fool?rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-28286960715039249162010-09-09T00:45:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:45:17.633-07:00Religious ControlFollowing<br />
Inside You Are Hollowing<br />
Religion Begins Swallowing<br />
You Whole, Your Life And Soul<br />
Religion Starts To Take Its Toll<br />
<br />
Controlling<br />
The Things That You Are Doing<br />
The Thoughts You Are Pursuing<br />
No More Control Over Your Soul<br />
Religion Plays The Ultimate Role<br />
<br />
Hatred<br />
To Those Who Arent The Same<br />
To God Its Just A Game<br />
Rigged To Lose Either Path You Choose<br />
Religions Just A Clever Ruserayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-45755555866997323262010-09-09T00:19:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:19:18.513-07:00Depressing Daysweighed down by emotions<br />
drowning in depression<br />
loneliness in mind<br />
longing for connection<br />
over looked by many<br />
a day of self reflection<br />
forgotten by the world<br />
a world full of deception<br />
alone with my thoughts<br />
pain within my heart<br />
my depressing day<br />
inspired depressing artrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-48016687751546631952010-09-09T00:18:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:18:25.478-07:00A Home To Disownmy space is not my own<br />
this place is not my home<br />
a place which i disown<br />
disgracing your name<br />
possessing no shame<br />
destroyed by your reign<br />
to you were the blame<br />
poison flows within your veins<br />
passed out, no intent to change<br />
sick of your destructive ways<br />
tired of the effect it plays<br />
on the ones that truly payrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-52203170734040663342010-09-09T00:14:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:14:48.010-07:00Religion Is Warlets have a war<br />
my god has done more<br />
it says in this book<br />
your gods just a crook<br />
fallacies created<br />
places invaded<br />
blood has been shed<br />
people are dead<br />
for what may i ask<br />
whats the goal of this task<br />
to kill non believers<br />
label them as deceivers<br />
you think your god won<br />
but the war isn't done<br />
there will always be more<br />
religion is warrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-64050474271021969872010-09-09T00:12:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:12:23.364-07:00Sedatedit must be so cool to act like a fool<br />
smoking and drinking without even thinking<br />
as you acquire the desire to party and inspire<br />
the younger generation that intoxication is the inspiration for the creation of fun. <br />
its just over-rated to be sedated<br />
no recollection of the night, no thoughts on whats right. just fun in your mind, common sense left behind, important decisions made blind, mistakes you wish you could rewind and avoid at all cost, all those moments you lost blacked out on the floor, you wont remember no more.rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-53415981560517044482010-09-09T00:10:00.000-07:002010-09-09T00:10:27.458-07:00Love?Emotions Torn<br />
Body Worn<br />
Love Is A Thought<br />
It Can Not Be Taught<br />
Emotional Chains<br />
Cover Your Pains<br />
Love Is So Clear<br />
But Reality Is Near<br />
Blinded By Love<br />
And Loving So Blindly<br />
Ignoring The Signs And Advice That Is Given<br />
Your Love Is So Strong And Your Doubts Remain Hiddenrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-4017262314033953762010-09-09T00:07:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:07:55.959-07:00Regretnot realizing what you want<br />
untill it isnt there<br />
pretending its whats good for you<br />
as emotions gasp for air<br />
<br />
thinking of mistakes youve made<br />
as they haunt your every day<br />
wishing you could just take back<br />
the things you didnt want to say<br />
<br />
is it just to late for me<br />
to reclaim what Ive lost<br />
will I get another chance<br />
to retrieve at any costrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-82254776043783995772010-09-09T00:03:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:03:26.748-07:00To My Pretend Friendyou act as a friend<br />
its just an act in the end<br />
youve chosen to deceive<br />
past actions i cant believe<br />
iv come to this conclusion<br />
your not worth the time or the confusion<br />
im just letting you know<br />
our friendships done, im letting you go<br />
trample on those that care<br />
and soon youll find that no ones thererayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-15990012769809086842010-09-09T00:01:00.001-07:002010-09-09T00:01:31.950-07:00Lead OnAnger Fills My Body<br />
Pain Fills My Heart<br />
Confusion Fills My Mind<br />
You Treat It As An Art<br />
<br />
Fucking With Emotions<br />
Messing With My Head<br />
You Think Your Something Special<br />
In My Eyes Your Just Dead :)rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-61768378054328833922010-09-08T21:58:00.001-07:002010-09-08T21:58:35.456-07:00Scarred RemainsYou Held The Match That Lit The Flame<br />
You've Burnt Me Times Before<br />
You've Tried To Extinguish The Pain<br />
Like Always I'm Left Sore<br />
Sitting Here With Scarred Remains<br />
Not Trusting Anymore<br />
Believing You My First Mistake<br />
Most Likely Premature<br />
Trusting You In Any Way<br />
A Lesson Learned Forsurerayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-25971236476477019742010-09-08T21:56:00.001-07:002010-09-08T21:56:47.062-07:00Pretty To The Naked Eyepretty to the naked eye<br />
selfish needs to fulfill<br />
using people for your gain<br />
crushing them for a thrill<br />
life is like your masquerade<br />
hidden deep beneath a shade<br />
your intentions will appear<br />
why you do it still unclear<br />
if they open up their eyes<br />
eventually they will realize<br />
your image is a disguise<br />
for the ugly beneath the liesrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-90603650086089617972010-09-08T21:52:00.001-07:002010-09-08T21:52:32.502-07:00Bitter Sweet Memorieswill this ever be enough<br />
to move forward from where i stand<br />
will i ever progress enough<br />
to accomplish what they all demand<br />
<br />
confused to what should be left behind<br />
haunted by thoughts etched in my mind<br />
solutions for others i can find<br />
but for myself i remain blind<br />
<br />
so afraid of mistakes, i cant look ahead<br />
im left awake laying in bed<br />
thinking of things i should have said<br />
and what should be buried, left for dead<br />
<br />
<br />
these bitter sweet memories <br />
iv clung to for so long<br />
should they haunt my existence<br />
or is the past where they belongrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-74713355065109062092010-09-08T21:48:00.001-07:002010-09-08T21:48:36.952-07:00My Escapethe feeling i get as i drift from existence<br />
reality behind me left in the distance<br />
i'm consumed in a world thats inscripted in ink<br />
this world is its own, leaving freedom to think<br />
an escape from this turmoil, no worries in mind<br />
hidden in a place that no one can find<br />
but everything good must come to an end<br />
its slowly over as my eyes descend<br />
left hoping for more but it can not be<br />
that place was my world and a large part of me<br />
<br />
rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-49269487040789031442010-09-08T21:47:00.001-07:002010-09-08T21:47:28.853-07:00Self ReflectionReflecting Upon Myself<br />
Uncovering Fears Deep Within<br />
Are These Fears To Be Ignored?<br />
To Stay Hidden Beneath My Skin?<br />
<br />
Do I Know What I Want?<br />
Am I Scared Of What Could Be?<br />
Afraid To Let People Close<br />
Afraid Of What They Will See<br />
<br />
I'm Constantly Selfconcious<br />
Hiding Behind These Walls<br />
Dreading All The Moments<br />
I Cant Prevent At Allrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-50577336751590252942010-09-08T21:46:00.000-07:002010-09-08T21:46:02.372-07:00No SympathyEach Sip You Take From You're Glass Leaves A Crack In Mine.<br />
Each Drink You Take To Drown You're Past Leaves Us Left Behind.<br />
Each Step You Stumble Or Curb YOU Fall You're Just Not The Same.<br />
Each Time I See You Like This, The Anger I Restrain.<br />
<br />
My Sympathy For You Extinct.<br />
You're Habits Causing Me To Think.<br />
You've Lost All Of Your Self Control.<br />
You Drink To Try To Fill A Hole?<br />
<br />
Now That Its All Said And Done.<br />
You're Glass Is Empty, You're Pain Has Won!rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-13438231721495742372010-09-08T20:25:00.001-07:002010-09-08T20:25:23.560-07:00Desireto desire the things that mean most to you<br />
but never acquire those things you pursue<br />
defeated by your emotional needs<br />
crushing your hopes, destroying your dreams<br />
left wishing for things that can not be<br />
hoping for what youll never see<br />
dreaming of how life would be,<br />
if your dreams became realityrayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2697683744384616767.post-55428041619763990002010-09-08T20:19:00.001-07:002010-09-08T20:19:39.695-07:00Sea Of Liesthe current drifts you further from me<br />
sailing off course, as i sit by the sea<br />
the sea of lies you engulfed yourself in<br />
waiting for a ship and what might have been<br />
new passenger boarded to take my place<br />
im left abandoned, just empty space<br />
i was forgotten, erased from time<br />
stranded by the ship that i thought was mine.rayray1990http://www.blogger.com/profile/14479839505750558414noreply@blogger.com0